Graceful Giving

Today someone said to me "Your giving lacks grace." I have to reflect about this...because I don't want my giving to lack grace. But they were right in all honesty. At least in this circumstance. A lesson I am trying to work through. It was hard to hear it said outloud though. I found myself trying to justify my lack of grace and purety in my giving. To deflect and make them the responsible party. I know why I feel the way I feel and why my giving lacks grace, but those are all my own thoughts and perspectives, so therefore my responisblility to change it, if I so choose. My ego wants to be all over this, and because I am aware of this I can sit appearing quiet on the outside, but inside I have been a flurry of thoughts, emotions, perceptions, sparks, movements, understandings, observations....I'm sorry my giving has lacked grace.