My Harley

You see its not what you think...just as many things aren't...My Harley doesn't have handle bars...but two arms. My Harley also does not have wheels...just two legs...like you and me. And where the engine should be, is a Huge Heart...and it is full of Love...for me and a few other choice people. His mother of course dotes on him....Harley can do no wrong in her eyes. She would be mad at me If I didn't mention her *grins*.

He can make me laugh....when the world has ended...such an astonishing feat. Those legs and arms I spoke so casually of earlier...have held me up when I wanted to collapse. He has walked every step of the way with me loving and growing with me. I know he thinks I'm crazy...and I know he loves me especially for it.

He is the ONE person I can just be myself with and know that I am unconditionally loved. No shield, no defensive wall...I hope we die old together at the same moment, for I would not want to be separated from him in such a decisive way....ever. I want to mingle my Energy with his forever more.  

We were married on Oct. 31 for a very special reason...to symbolize a time of change...from summer to fall, I time of plenty, the time to harvest what we had sown. These were are wedding vows.

Reading

Looking for your face

From the beginning of my life

I have been looking for your face

but today I have seen it.

Today I have seen

the charm, the beauty,

the unfathomable grace

of the face

that I was looking for.

Today I have found you

and those that laughed

and scorned me yesterday

are sorry that they were not looking

as I did.

I am bewildered by the magnificence

of your beauty

and wish to see you with a hundred eyes.

My heart has burned with passion

and has searched forever

for this wondrous beauty

that I now behold.

I am ashamed

to call this love human

and afraid of God

to call it divine.

Your fragrant breath

like the morning breeze

has come to the stillness of the garden

You have breathed new life into me

I have become your sunshine

and also your shadow.

My soul is screaming in ecstasy

Every fiber of my being

is in love with you

Your effulgence

has lit a fire in my heart

and you have made radiant

for me

the earth and sky.

My arrow of love

has arrived at the target

I am in the house of mercy

and my heart

is a place of prayer.

~Rumi~

(Name), I offer you not the "summer of my life" but the autumn, brisk and vibrant.

I promise to be a companion worthy of your precious friendship. I pledgeyou compassion in good times and bad; encouragement in sickness and health. 

We'll cherish the memories of our individual pasts;and create our new life as we go now together.

Now you will feel no rain, for each of you will be shelter for the other.

Now you will feel no cold, for each of you will be warmth to the other.
Now there will be no loneliness, for each of you will be companion to the other.
Now you are two persons, but there is only one life before you.
May beauty surround you both in the journey ahead and through all the years, May happiness be your companion and your days together be good and long upon the earth.

This is My Harley.

The Creation of Me Part 6: This To Shall Pass

This is for someone/s in particular, so there will be no mention of names as they will know who they are....

I wanted you to know that there aren't many people I trust enough to allow them to pull me into their Arms and Energy and tell me I can do this, encouraging me to breathe....to allow you to look dead in my eyes and look you back dead in the eye and say..."I don't think I can do this." I am very sorry if I Let you down...more importantly I am sorry I let Myself down. I wish that You could for just a moment look through the world with my eyes,ears, nerves, thoughts,feelings and instantly know how to fix me.

Sometimes your Energy is almost to much for me, even though you hardly say a word, and when you do speak, wisdom just drips from your mouth like......honey in a too full jar. Then...you add Her to the mix...Her loving and caring Energy....takes my breath away sometimes. Then put me in a room with 7-10 other people who's Energy was vibrating all around me and I knew.....couldn't even stop myself....and the tears just flowed. I couldn't stop them anymore........I found myself swallowing, trying to stop it. Not even hearing a word that was being said...not really, so focused on making myself not let it go. To many people I did not know, noise, laughter, music,'t everything echoing off the walls of my head and the walls of the room. My insides shaking. Knowing that if I actually connected with that Energy with touch....all bets would have been off. So I walked away. I was scared. I didn't want to break in front of Everyone.

I know that I am being violently swept clean right now, I can step back and see it. I am trying to experience it as it comes, I know....this too shall pass.