I realized something recently about myself….It has to do with…oh so many things, and its as painful as slowly pealing an onion back layer by layer…I have been such an angry person as of late. Peoples actions leave a very sour taste in my mouth…*Smiles* gotta love the food references….sorry that is just how it is coming out. I was just about to write, Like a lemon. And there goes my train of thought…I digress please excuse me. Anger is very hard for me to contain once I am angry, it just spills out of me onto the floor like the Wicked Witch of the West, when she had water poured on her. I hate it…and I know that is a problem too. I feel so dizzy trying to unravel the cycle that has been going on far to long…take it and take it and take it…for what? you might ask…For hope, for being stubborn, for hating conflict,for wanting to not be alone. I have a confession to make…I can’t ever remember a time when I was not by myself…I've been alone for short periods of time, but I always had my children…Before that I was a child myself.They were my one constant…and then I ask myself this question to what I believe…If I AM Infinite…then this statement is not true….There is only one Constant….Me.
To be continued…
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