This is for someone/s in particular, so there will be no mention of names as they will know who they are....
I wanted you to know that there aren't many people I trust enough to allow them to pull me into their Arms and Energy and tell me I can do this, encouraging me to breathe....to allow you to look dead in my eyes and look you back dead in the eye and say..."I don't think I can do this." I am very sorry if I Let you down...more importantly I am sorry I let Myself down. I wish that You could for just a moment look through the world with my eyes,ears, nerves, thoughts,feelings and instantly know how to fix me.
Sometimes your Energy is almost to much for me, even though you hardly say a word, and when you do speak, wisdom just drips from your mouth like......honey in a too full jar. Then...you add Her to the mix...Her loving and caring Energy....takes my breath away sometimes. Then put me in a room with 7-10 other people who's Energy was vibrating all around me and I knew.....couldn't even stop myself....and the tears just flowed. I couldn't stop them anymore........I found myself swallowing, trying to stop it. Not even hearing a word that was being said...not really, so focused on making myself not let it go. To many people I did not know, noise, laughter, music,'t everything echoing off the walls of my head and the walls of the room. My insides shaking. Knowing that if I actually connected with that Energy with touch....all bets would have been off. So I walked away. I was scared. I didn't want to break in front of Everyone.
I know that I am being violently swept clean right now, I can step back and see it. I am trying to experience it as it comes, I know....this too shall pass.
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